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Moving. Again. >D [29 Apr 2003|07:16pm]
Yeah, new LJ. Why? Uh... I want to make it friends only and I'm too lazy to edit all these entries out =D so fear while I clean shit up. either way, as soon as I get it done it'll be at demoness_lirium
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Well, I'm updating again. [19 Apr 2003|07:56pm]
[ mood | *wiggle, wiggle* ]

I'm on Flo's real computer. His resolution is godly, as well as his computer in general. DSL is spoiling me. Today was mine and Matt's first anniv. with me living in the same place, but he didn't get to come over. *blinks up at everyone.* Though, he's coming over tomorrow, with food, to spend Easter with me. ^^ since I don't have any family here. ^_^ It's very sweet.
I saw his mother for the first time. She was hella cute. >D she was making jokes and making fun of him and Keith. She doesn't know I'm his girlfriend, yet, but.. she will someday. ^_^
We went to see Anger Management yesterday, it was helllllaaa good. ^_^; I was very amused. We took up like four seats, all curled up against each other. Ne? ^_^; I love him very much and the more time I spend here I know I should keep up my working, but I don't have training til Tuesday, so I think I'm off until then. *blinks slowly.*

Eiiither way, I think that's about it. I should yell at Keith more later, just because it's fun as hell. ^_^;;;; He's so oddly cute. o.O Seriously, any girl would be lucky to have him, or Neal for that matter. But don't get near MY Matt or I'll rip your head off and use it as a bowl for dip. >_> Y'hear me? >_____>



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Jesus P. Christ. [16 Apr 2003|08:55pm]
[ mood | scared, sorta, but content. ]

Fuck me, dude. I owe 600 dollars by the tenth for rent, and all I have docked so far is seven hours at a job that the people don't even think I can do. I can fucking do it, and I will do it better, because I'll be damned if I have to go home on some kind of backwater technicality and leave Matt behind. Fuck that, dude.
Neal's making me read this book called 'The Magic of Thinking Big', and I'm going to do that from now on. Think big. Think I deserve more, can do more, because fuck them.. I do and can. Bleh
Other than that, things have been fine. Yesterday was my first full day with Matt.. we layed around and such a lot, watched Naruto, watched him play Armored Core 3, and.. yeah.. I dunno, it was just nice curling up with my head on his chest and his arms around me. Made this entire trip worth it. Which is why I'm going to work my ass off if need-be and stay here. 600 bucks.. jesus. I can do this... I can. @_@

But yeah, thought I'd update you all, anyways. Oh, yeah. >D Matt walked to Little Caesers yesterday and got us pizza and shit.. I was like "I love you, man!" because, I had fallen asleep while he was gone and .. yeah. ^_^ He's so sweet to me. Anyways.

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*_* [12 Apr 2003|10:31pm]
[ mood | beautifully content. ]

I'm now in California. Lots of shit is going on, though Matt hasn't been around in ages. Dude wtf? I look tanned in this room. *just noticed.* Weird. o_O;; anyways. Yeah, I'm here, and I"m safe... and.. I got my first kiss Thursday. ^_^;;;;;;;;;;;;; Me and Matt are GREAT. *___* he's not here right now. >_> Because his parents dragged him off to Vegas for some kind of wedding this weekend. He'll be back tomorrow or something, so that's good. I'l get my Matt time. AFter, of course, I get done with training for my new job.

All in all, everything is going great. Neal is hella attractive =D You guys'd love him, and Matt's just as sexy and cute as always, and.. yeah. Kisses. Yeah. I hella wish he was here now. Anyways. ^_^ Leave me comments and I'll check back when I can. On a friends laptop. Flo, my roommmatesssss.. got a.. DSL on this laptop.. Hella nice, either way. ^_^ I missed you guys! =D

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Kamen Raidaaa~ [01 Apr 2003|08:19am]
[ mood | Ore no.. henshin! ]

Okay, that has no real meaning, I'm just listening to Kamen Rider Ending theme by Animetal as I'm typing this, but yeah. >D it isn't too long, but it's most amusing, and Kamen rider rocks all your socks =T It's all MAtt's fault I downloaded most of these songs. Been into Kamen Rider for ages, but christ almighty, the animetal music! ^__^ Anyways. X.x

here!

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is a
Haggis-Eating Laboratory Monkey


...with a Battle Rating of 7.3



To see if your Food-Eating Battle Monkey can
defeat nanasawa, enter your name:



Also, 'bout time for a layout change. o.O Maybe I'll do something kamen rider or touketsu'ish this time. o.o -maaaaybe- ^___^
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Wow.. [25 Mar 2003|02:10pm]
[ mood | BIZNOOTCHES. ]

Another update. I just felt the urge. I'm moving in like .. 15 days. w00t. ^_^ I'm going to be so happy. Anyways. ^_^ Here's a rant I just wrote on http://eo.fran-web.net/index.php?s= and if you and join, mention me. =T w00t.

[[After a long-winded debate with someone who decided to call me a child (when they were the same age as me) and tell me how fucked up dubbed anime is.. I have to bring the discussion here, to see how many other people I can change...

Seriously, is dubbing all that bad? Yes, it may sound like shit, and sometimes it may fuck up the script, but to go all gung-ho on dubbed anime, just because you don't like it is a little fucking ridiculous. I mean, seriously.. if you don't like dub.. guess what? You don't *gasp.* HAVE to watch it.. No one told you to go turn on CN and start watching whatever they fed you.. Sometimes for me it'sjust nice to get any sort of taste of anime.. I can watch a dub, watch the action, and be perfectly happy.. other times I get pissed off, turn off the dub, and go watch my Naruto subbed DVDs..
The thing is, I'm so tired of every little 13 year old girl who's in love with Yaoi coming in and saying how utterly fucked up dubbing is and how it 'takes away from anime support'... Uh.. yeah. You think the anime gets a cut of every fansub you buy...? You think they buy 100 of the original tapes and just sub over them..? Nooo, they make copies, and therefore, the anime doesn't get very much support at all. If you want to buy the HK DVDs, like I did for Naruto, then more power to ya.. but don't come in here ranting about how watching CN anime takes away from how much anime support gets, because they get a lot.

Anyways.. yeah.. thoughts?]]

Yeah, I got angry. 'Drea gets angry at stupid people a lot. Woah, I really am starting to sound like Matt. o___O; I should get that checked. ^_^ Anyways. Yeaaah, things are going fine with Matt. ^_^ since I'll be there in a couple of weeks, it's great.. I got him this kickass gift that I wont tell him about. I told Keith, though, and Sou, and they both freaked out and said he'd be so fucking happy. So yeah. ^_^ it's really uber spiffy. *beams.* Aaaand lets see, my SSC came yesterday so I can go downtown soon and get my ID, so I can get on the plane for fucks sake. It makes me nervous in some sense because I've never been alone on a plane before, and I haven't been on a plane period since I was like 6 or some shit... so dealing with security and following procedures and all that makes me nervous o.O luggage scares me, so I'm taking very little. =D I may not even take a carry-on as I had planned, just my purse thingy majigger hand-bag thing.

Anyways, yeah.. that's all you get for now, bitches! Tune in later. o___o for the conclusion of.. DRAGON.. BALL.. Z-- wait, wrong thing. Anyways o.ov

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Oi. [16 Mar 2003|12:36am]
[ mood | Oi.. ]

Okay, so I'm updating now. That's a good thing. I dunno, I'm just in one of those moods suddenly. Probably half because of PMS, half because of the fact that Matt feels all blah too. Not gonna get into that, though.. y'know? It's our business. *shrugs.*

Livejournal was being a whore earlier and I couldn't add half the people who'd added me since I've been gone as friends. I dunno why, but.. eh.. *shrugs and tilts her head, pondering, wiggling her fingers.* Livejournal always seems to like to give me problems when I'm pondering commiting to it again. It's like a curse.

*scratches her head and then her shoulder.* I should start packing up the rest of my stuff, soon.. the days are winding closer. It's weird.. I'm not so much nervous now.. I know things will work out.. but every once in a while I just fear over everything. Like how things will go.. how I'll survive.. hoping that he'll love me as much when I'm there, as he does when I'm here. *closes her eyes and hums.* Hrm..

I'm into a new series.. well, sorta. Saikano. Saishu Heiki Kanojo. It's pretty spiffy.. I like the girl, and Shuu-chan and Tetsu are hot. Plus, it has a wench I can hate. Fuyumi. She's married to the hottie Tetsu, but since he's always away because he's in the military, she like... uses her past relationship with Shuu (which was basically them sleeping together once a long time ago, and he was in love with her.) to get him into bed lots -now-. So she can fill some stupid void. When all Shuu really wants is to be happy with Chise (the heroine that I love), whom he loves utterly and dearly. It bothers the piss out of me. Die, Fuyumi.. die.

I'm also still into Naruto, and I'm agitated by the new people who are getting into it and getting further into the anime, yet still know less than I do. They download episodes on their amazingly fast broadband, and I sit around waiting for the next DVDs to come out so I can BUY it and support a series I actually love. *shrugs.* if I have money, I'd much rather pay for anime, rather than cheating artists I love.

Anyways, I think that's about it. @.@

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Gah, I'm so tired. [15 Mar 2003|10:04am]
[ mood | sglnsliengw ]

I woke up with my stomach still hurting, 'cept.. it wasn't the upper part of my stomach, it was more in my lower abdomen. I was like.. "... aw fuck, noooo." but yeah, it IS that.. *muttermutter, scream.* I wish it'd just stop all together. e.e Grrr. The dull throbbing is annoying, at best, but I know it's going to get worst.. and in all honestly I'm totally fucking tired, because it's really god awfully early over here for me, especially since I didn't get to sleep too early last night. I may head back to bed in a second in hopes that I can sleep more. Rawr.. I hate this. @.@ I just wish it'd be like "Oh, I'm here!" and barely trickle, then be gone a second later. Raaawr. *angst.* Anyways.. I'm writing, really tiredly, so I think I'll either head back to bed or just sit here with my eyes closed until I rot. @.@

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I'm alive, honest. [14 Mar 2003|05:01pm]
[ mood | MOTHER OF *bites her lip.* ]

I do this everytime. I start it, then forget, leave, and everyone is like ".. Okay. o.O typical Drea." Aaaanyways.
Lots of stuff happening. I'm moving to San Jose, CA on April 10th. ^_^ I guess that's the biggest thing. o.O and yes, it's like.. huge. ^_^ Matt's happy, I'm happy, Neal's happy, and Keith is Keith. ^^ I'm gonna have a life and friends and stuff, which means I'll probably use LJ a lot more to keep people up to date on ewhat I'm doing when I'm not able to be online long. I'm so happy, so yeah. ^_^ It's actually one of the best things that could happen to me.

Also, I got a new layout. o.o I like it. =D Fear my hentai'ness. *cheers and wiggles.* I'm such a kitty. o.O And now I sound like Matt. "You're such a kitten. *smiles and pets.*" I swear to god. ^_^ I love him sooo much.

... O.o anyways, for some reason I can think of anything else to write. I'll keep you all updated on how everything is going as the days close in towards the date of moving. But.. OOO YAY. =D



>D!!! My fave quote ever. o.O Nny is so cute. n___n

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I know... I KNOOOOW I'll hate myself for saying this, but... [15 Jan 2003|11:10am]
[ mood | kitty-tank go boom! MEEEOOW! ]

.. Dude, I wanna play RO. Y'know why? I MISS MY FUCKING FRIENDS. Jesus christ.. everyone I used to just randomly talk to about shit with just ran off to RO. T_T
Hell, my Wifey ran off! Carra! Teru! Fuckin' Tim! Jesus christ!
..
I..
want.
to.
play.
RO.
*demands!*
.. damnit.. *runs off.*

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Bleh. [02 Jan 2003|02:45am]
[ mood | Shredding your fucking pride. ]

I don't even understand why I believed any of my exes. Women may be manipulative whores who always attempt to get what they want, besides those who have an obvious control over it.. but... Men are goddamn liars.. all of them have lied to me at some point.

I hate you. I think I have never felt such a burning pain inside my chest in such a long time.. I would blame it on heartburn, but it doesn't feel like this. You're a goddamn liar.. and I can't believe you didn't have the audacity to tell me the truth. I'm hurt more than anything because beyond all else, I did care about you. Sure, I've been in love with Matt for four years, but I cared about you enough to keep you close to me, even going as far to hunt you down in IM before just to speak to you... but.. to have this happen...

*shakes her head.* I'll explain it to you the next time i see you, and then you'll understand. Other than that, remind me to get in contact with your 'girlfriend' or 'fiance', whatever it is.. I need to correct her on a few points about my past, tell her what I lied about, and what was true, and then tell her to forget about me since that'll make things a ton easier. I don't like thinking about the fact that I'm used as an example for the way to 'not use the internet' when I've changed, but y'know what?
More power to ya.

I've changed, and for the most part moved on from what I used to be, but y'know what? Y'come online, you ask to be drawn into someone's fantasy.. the internet is a proverbial penis extension for males and females alike, a way to be something they're not and form into something they wished they could be. And if it doesn't work, they resort to lies.
Yes, I've done it, but you have to understand, I got over it.. I don't lie to people about things anymore, because it's a lot easier for them to believe me when I tell the truth all the other times. If I say something is wrong, then it's wrong. But, that's not the point here.

The point is, I'm so mad I could breathe fire and destroy every car you have ever loved within a wave, considering you were still telling me you loved me last month sometime, yet, you didn't even have the presence of mind to go 'Maybe I should tell her I'm dating/engaged to someone that used to hate her so fully and would want to destroy her if she knew we were talking.'

.. That's all.

For those of you who didn't know me four of five years ago, this would have no meaning to you. The person I 'hate' would, but the lies I told would not.. I got over that rather quickly when I almost lost God as a friend.. he helped me, and I shall forever be indebted to him for showing me that doing things like that will end up murdering my 'self' and destroying the real me. This is me, this is who I am... Either way, sorry for the rant, please continue on with your normal LJ viewing.

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Weee. [17 Dec 2002|02:40am]
[ mood | Groggy desu. ]

Okay, I'm really groggy because I just drug myself out of bed. As soon as I got this layout done earlier I passed out, so yeah. Anyways. I have a few things for certain people o.o Mostly Wifey and Cheri-baby because it seems like they're slipping away from me. T_T It's just songs for them, lyrics basically, nothing big, but I miss them tons and they both seem so sad.. so I decided this'd be nice.
The other day, I got Wifey's card in the mail and I almost lost it. ^_^ It made my day to get something like that from her. o.o So I don't care if she sends me a gift or not, because I love her muchly! ^__^
Anyways, onto the song for Cheri-baby and Wifey. Here it is.

</i> Rufio</i>- "One Slowdance"
You're standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you here
By my side
Your smile at me
Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read you thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
Oh.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read you thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye
And I'm swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I'm in a trance
From that one slowdance.

You're standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you there
By my side
Your smile at me
Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
Oh.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye
And I'm swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I'm in a trance
From that one slowdance.

We don't have to talk,
We don't have to laugh at all
I just want you here with me

We don't have to talk,
We don't have to laugh at all
I just want to be
You and me

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my hearting beating so hard
We look eye to eye
And im swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I'm in a trance
From that one slowdance.

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I know it's not much, but that's for youuuuu, Wifey and Cheri-baby. ^_^. The layout is Naruto by the way, one of my newest perm-obsessions. Been into Naruto for a couple of months now o.o or longer. ^^ Anyways, I'm too groggy and weird to type anymore. o.o so have fun. ^_^

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=D [27 Nov 2002|04:34pm]
Which JA:1 whore are you?

I am Drea! I put the "ho" in whore. If I haven't sucked or fucked you by now, you're way behind in JA status. It's the cold truth, but I don't mind, seeing as how I don't stop selling my body for a little of nothing! Stop by JA:1 and see me sometime. Cum on.

Which JA:1 whore are you? @ The Atomic Temple



=D!!!
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Wai. T.T [26 Nov 2002|10:41pm]
[ mood | lsgnlsgd ]

Dude, I also want to add, while everyone else has gotten AMAZINGLY better at web design and image production.. I mostly have to steal my tidbits from other people. T_T I'm such a fraud. o.O I wish I could pull off a layout like Wifey's o.o which leads me to ask where Wifey learned. T_T and if she taughter herself, how. T___T For some reason I just can't seem to teach myself all the nifty stuff you can do, and.. yeah. @.@ image cutting, splicing, and all that. >> and then even the basics baffle me sometime. *siiigh.* I guess I should give up on the idea of being an amazing web designer. @.@ Waah.

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[26 Nov 2002|08:56pm]

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And then there were .. uh, quite a few. [26 Nov 2002|07:54pm]
Tired, wounded, and.. yeah. ^_^ I slammed my elbow into the edge of a marble table yesterday and busted the flesh, knotted the bone, and bruised my tissue =D It's great. Other than that, I have two burns on my wrist, and one on my toe. I'm fine. ^_^; Honestly, just a clutz. Oh, but.. yeah.

Abouuut the layout. o.O; Found a bunch of fanart, smashed it together, and drooled for a while. Locke is such a hottie and that pic reminds me of me and you know who. ^_^; Yeah, mostly because Locke looks hella shorter o.O and it's pretty. ^_^ Anyways. I'm just.. kind of out of it, replaying FFVI. Right now I'm fighting Ifrit and Shiva o.o; so I should probably pay attention before I get fire 3'd. ^_^;; I'll update more often, I swear!

God>: >_>;

I will!

God>: *nods sagely.* ^_^;

Anyways! Life is grand!

Uwao~
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It's asinine. [06 Nov 2002|11:44am]
[ mood | Frustrated, yet happy. ]

Not sleeping for like twenty four hours, then sleeping for twelve, then not sleeping for thirty-six.. then sleeping for eighteen. It's start to wreak havoc on me. And I barely eat. X.x and.. I think it's hitting me, that whole typical love thing.. where you know you're blissfully suffocating in it? I've never been happier. _NEVER_. And I wouldn't give this up for anything. But, I wonder if he's getting bored with me, seeing as he's either been sick, or decided to go to bed early because of class recently. REALLY early. Last night he went to bed at 7, but.. technically he did down some NyQuil because he was getting sick, and I told him to, because I worry @.@ Honestly, though. *sighs and hums Kurenai by X-Japan.* Wah. It's not fair, though, I miss him tons. Oh well. I guess I'll sit here, check that thing he writes in every little bit to see if he wrote today at school, and MUD until I absolutely pass out, which will probably take a while. *mutter.* Anyways. Have fun, folks.

~Uwao...

P.S. Everytime I see his pic (which I put up by my door, also kissing my fingers and pressing them to it almost EVERY time I leave) I smile.. because even if most people wouldn't say he's the hottest guy on earth. He's fscking perfect, and so utterly sweet. you have to know him deeply to understand. *smiles.*

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Oi. X.x [04 Nov 2002|10:12am]
[ mood | Broken. ]

Cleaning sucks, especially when you basically hyper extend your back I'm in so much pain I can't even thinks traight, and ontop of that I only got a little sleep last night, and that was when Matt made me take a nap because my head hurt. Waaah. He'll be so worried if he finds out I didn't sleep last night 'cept for that little bit, and if he finds out I'm still in pain, y'know. *yawns and thinks.* So I dunno.. maybe I'll just kepe my mouth shut. *snuggles up against him and peers at everyone.* I know I don't update often. I barely have anything to say anymore. I mostly just spend time with Matt, and some time in mIRC. Other than that, I haven't been doing anything, 'cept cleaning and trying to keep myself stable.

I'm so in love, too. X.x this song explains it so well. I know it's N'Sync, but you people don't understand. T__T look at the lyrics. *cuddles in against Matt and thinks.* If I can think of anything else, I'll write more later, and maybe get a new layout up sometime.

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Been a while. [28 Oct 2002|04:29pm]
[ mood | ready to diiiie X.x *hurk.* ]

I dunno, I just felt like updating some. I swear I think Matt is getting bored with me, and he's even asked himself if he is, but he swears to gods he isn't. I can't help but believe him. I trust him more than anything. *smiles.* Anyways. At least we're still together, ne? And it's all going great.. we're tired as all hell but we're trying to make time for each other.

Dude, I'm starving.. and there's no food. *yawns.* I think I may go just make something. Like veggies, or some shit.. my stomach turns everytime I think of eating anything, but I'm starving.. it's weird.

Anyways.. I miss MAtt so utterly terribly that I want to curl up and choke. He makes me so happy and I'm like "rawr, be here now!" and it just doesn't work. *whines.* I was supposed to clean my room today but I just didn't feel like it, so I'll do it when I -do- feel like it. *sighs and rubs her face.* Feverish.. rawr.. *sighs and dies.* I should go nooow before I ramble too much.

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Yes, I know. [20 Oct 2002|05:43am]
[ mood | tired and blah.. @.@ ]

It's been ages since I've updated, I'm slightly half tipsy/drunk and tired as all hell, and I didn't get to see Matt today.. so yeah, fear me wrath if you see me around. I'm hoping he'll come on in the next.. half an hour to hour I plan to be on. Yesterday was our two month anniversary, so yeah. I kept trying to get home earlier, but my cousin needed me since she's going through a divorce. And yeah, I'm spending more time out of the house, doing things, like I have a life.. so fear me. *yawns and sighs.* It's no big deal though.. I asked my cousin if she just randomly wanted to talk to Matt, because she hit redial on the cell phone from when I tried to call him and tell him I'd be on later this morning, and she thought I meant 'talk' to him, like she wanted him. I told her I'd stab her if she tried and she took it personal, so I had to renigg on that and act like it was a joke. >> It wasn't. *yawns and curls up.* This is one big long run on sentence paragraph which I will probably smack myself for when I'm more concious, but who cares. *yawns and rubs her eyes.* Btw, Absolute Zero by Faith No More is an amazing fucking song. I demand you all get it. *yawns and purrs.* I should shut up before I say something stupid, and head to bed soon. *waits longer to see if Matt slips on, though.* Wai wai .. G'night all @.@

Uwao...

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